The Impossible Return - Psychoanalytic Reflections on Breast Cancer, Loss, and Mourning is a work of creative non-fiction and auto-theory. It is part cancer memoir, part psychoanalytic theorizing, and part history of late-Soviet Ukraine. Anna Fishzon’s personal narrative is interspersed with interludes exploring other “reconstructions” (Chernobyl’s sarcophagus, the perestroika years) as well as psychoanalytic reflections on anxiety, prosthesis, hypochondria, and tattooing. The authorial voice is intentionally polyphonic: elegiac, humorous, at times academic and philosophical. Each chapter is set in the context of the writing process, with discussion of the Covid-19 pandemic and war in Ukraine. The prologue examines the psychoanalyst’s bodily presence in treatment and includes clinical vignettes illustrating the impact of remote therapy sessions during lockdown. An epilogue provides a meditation on repetition compulsion and the impossibility of mourning fully. Through theoretical and personal reflections on mourning and recovery after catastrophic collapses of psyche, body, and place, the book makes original contributions to psychoanalysis, Slavic and cultural studies, trauma studies, film criticism, and history. This unique work will be relevant to readers interested in psychoanalytic studies, cancer and disability studies and critical theory, and academics of auto-theory and memoir.